Wake Up Touching Yourself
Do you ever wake up and just give yourself a hug?
Run your fingers along the skin of your legs?
Kiss on your shoulders?
Feel your own ass?
I came from a masterclass the other day where we talked about balance and motivation and creativity where it all centered around one thing: self-love. Now, why am I writing about self-love while touching yourself?
In many conservative communities, such as the one I grew up in, I could imagine questions such as, “Well, why do we need to talk about self-love and touching yourself in…that way? You can have have self-love like cooking or cleaning or…”
I’ll say this. The body is ancient. It holds so much more wisdom and power than we in our society give it credit for. The sexual expression we chose to practice is powerful because it opens up our body and challenges us to be present in our pleasure. One of the men in the group mentioned that in our society, we are often taught to disconnect from ourselves.
I remember contemplating this while working in a restaurant.
“Corner!”
“Run your drinks!”
“Refill! Refill!”
I remember thinking that the work was easy enough and the money was good enough to keep coming back. What I did not realize was the amount of disconnection from self that I had to do in order to continue to do the work. I was desensitizing myself…developing a tough skin, but I would always come home realizing that the things I like to do were put to the back burner of my life.
Quarantine was really important for me y’all.
I lost everything.
Break up from a 5-year relationship.
Lost my home.
Lost my car.
Gained some un-beautiful weight. (Lost 180lbs of it in the break-up.)
I had worked a lot on loving myself in the process.
I began to reconnect with my body again through yoga, social dance (with new and amazing roommates), and fitness I had let go of some time ago. I found new love and he spoke love into me through my ears and my lips (both lips) as he gave me the space to shed my tears of pain and pleasure.
Yet, when I began working again, I felt myself…putting myself off of the priority list.
The masterclass was important because it challenged me to come back to self and part of that meant coming back to my body in its full sexual and sensual expression.
You don’t know me yet, but as time goes on, I hope I can continue to bring you stories of this connection through love of self through dance, my sexual and sexual expression, and the stories that challenge me to grow and learn to grow into my highest form — or the best version of myself.
Therefore, in honor of the masterclass, I’ve got some homework for y’all (because I sure as hell need this too)…
- Wake up arms wrapped around yourself and rock for 3 breaths.
- Kiss both your shoulders
- Tell yourself 3 things you love about yourself
- Run your fingers down your hips for 2 breaths and in between your legs for three.
